An update

I was away on course on Friday afternoon and whole of Monday. It was simply wonderful. I actually ended really early on Monday, so I decided to make full use of the time to cut my hair. Haha...after that, I even had time to find and visit the Changi Bei Gong (tt YN and YL have been raving about) with my Dad.

About Changi Bei Gong, it's really interesting...4 religions have been housed together on the single piece of sacred land, namely Buddhism, Taoism, Islam, Hinduism. Very interesting..in fact, I think the Singapore Tourism Board should promote it as a place of interest for the tourists and Singaporeans too. We had a hard time finding the place because there weren't any road signs. Luckily, YN gave clear instructions.

Since this post has taken so long to draft, I shan't continue tis post animore. This post is meant to cover last week's happenings. Talk about efficiency. =)

Thurs - 21.20

This is getting bad. 9.20pm!!

Oh well, as a consolation, attributing factor is the course that I will be attending tmr afternoon and whole of Monday.

To answer Ruoxi's qn on my working time, let's just say that whoever said that civil servants don't need to work late, obviously never work late in the government before.

When days are good, I will end around 6.30pm. I correct myself - when days are VERY good. On the other hand, when there are deadlines and things get tough, I end any time from 9-10pm. On average, I think I am at work from 8am to 8pm from Mondays to Fridays. The only consolation is I don't come back on weekends (cross my fingers! Touch wood! I better not say too quickly.)

I told my staff that I have no life during weekdays one. How apt. Haha.

Wed - 18.45!!

I can get used to this...Nothing else needs to be said.

Tues Report - Finished work at 19.30

Decided to update tonight before going home, since I am waiting for my ride home now.

This week has really been kind to me. =) My boss is away today and tmr. Maybe this explains why I can talk to my staff more, as well as finish my work by 7.30pm today! I even have time to msn, even as I type this entry out. Heaven is kind.

Let's see the time clocked tomorrow. Tata! Home Sweet Home for now!

Monday's Report - Left office 19.30

I am certain that everyone should agree that this is a marked improvement from the past 2 weeks.

Since I have informed my family of my new resolution, I shall strive to make it happen. Let's see the time clocked for today!! =)

In other news, I don't know if I will shock anybody by saying this...I attended a session at a certain church in the West last week.

Since the church may have more supporters than I care to offend, I shall simply talk about my sentiments and takeaway from the whole episode.

What I really admire is the ability to get all their supporters geared towards a common faith and belief. And believe me when I say that it is a fervent faith. There were people around me, with eyes tightly closed, arms up in the end, chanting furiously. I know they were chanting in tongue, but it seemed to go like this: 'sha-bi-la, sha-bi-la' in quick succession. And when the speaker said sth +ve, everyone will say 'yes' together. Everyone wasn't shy/ inhibited at all.

There was a mini-concert going on stage, and I felt like I was in some mega-star show at the Indoor Stadium! The songs were catchy and the speakers (the person as well as the technical equipment) resonate with power.

Somehow an individual will get caught in the atmosphere around him/her, and I can only describe as 'electrifying' or 'emotionally-charged'.

Certainly, it was an eye-opener for me. I can't help but compare this with the most efficient and modern temple I can think of, and still I feel that there's a certain gap, which is why it doesn't surprise me that the young are flocking to such churches.

However, perhaps I am getting old. I felt foreign/ alienated from it all. Perhaps I still prefer the soothing nature of temples. Religion imparted through rock-&-roll music may appeal to the young, but not for me. What I am searching for is still the soothing, encompassing, forgiving nature of religion, where I can feel at peace withthin myself, with no external influence of thumping drumbeats.

Or maybe I am stereotyping religion.

(PS: Please don't misunderstand the above passage. It isn't meant to ridicule or belittle anybody or any church. It is with all due respect that I wrote the above.)

Me a Workholic or a Perfectionist?

What have I been doing since my last post 10 days ago? Searching for an answer inside my head, and the only obvious answer that pops out of my head is WORK.

How depressing...Not that I am being grossly overpaid or recognised for the efforts that I am 'investing' in my job. In my family's opinion, I have been seeing too much of my office and its surroundings for the past week. My sentiments exactly! As if I choose to stay back...

But then again, if I don't have my work to occupy me, what would I have been otherwise doing? It scares me sometimes to think about the fact that I am becoming a workholic...No life beyond work, or at least minimal life. What the heck am I doing right? What is becoming of my life?!

Really..what's the point of me working so hard? To prove something? I am not ambitious definitely...so the only reason I can think of is because I have nothing more fulfilling to occupy my time? The bad news is work takes up TOO MUCH of my time then. Or maybe I am just a perfectionist, which means that I can't go home until things are done the way that I want them to be done. Me a perfectionist?

Right now, I just want to leave the office by 7pm every Mon-Thurs, and 5.30pm on Fri. That's not too much to ask for, right? Let's see if I can attain though...

Busy...(shopping)

Been really busy - at work and shopping. Not for my social life though. hahah...

Blew more than $300 over the weekend. I actually went to Suntec on both Sat and Sun..Not for COMEX (I mean, come on...all of you know what a Techno Idiot I am) But for the Designer Fragrance Sales (organised by my sis's company). It's really really CHEAP!!! Which is why I spent so much.

What I bought:
6 bags (yes, it's 6!!! I didn't type wrongly. Only 1 is more formal kind.)
1 wallet (for my dad)
5 bottles of skincare/bodycare (to remove dead skin? Remove cellulite from places.)
Countless makeup items which includes MORE THAN 1 item each of lipstick, lip gloss, blusher, eye shadow, foundation
1 perfume set (for my mum)
3 bottles of perfume/EDT
3 perfume gift sets
Countless bottles of showergel/body lotion

Right, tt should be the grand tally. I seriously dun tink i m keeping all for myself, cos if I do tt, I think I can bathe in perfume, perfumed showergel and doll up like an opera singer for the rest of tis year and part of next yr too. SO you pple should be receiving such gifts for christmas.

Hee...actually, lotsa pple at the sale had similar ideas too.
Heard from my sis that 1 of the more drastic spenders actually bought $1822 worth of products!! 5 full bags. (I had only 2 full bags in comparison.)

Luving Yourself b4 Luving Another

1. Discover yourself - find out what you like or don’t like; and understand your personality.

2. Believe you are special and deserve to be treated well.

3. Lack of self-acceptance can go a long way toward eroding your love relationship with others, since the negative opinion you have of yourself will affect your family, partner, and friends.

At its extreme, low self-esteem can cause people to reject or self-sabotage their relationships.

For most people, learning to love yourself does not happen overnight. It needs to be developed and practised daily, just like learning a new language, until it becomes as natural as breathing.