Resignation

I really hate this feeling of being unsure..Yes, i know that i have done the ultimate and gave up on the race, but tt still doesn't eradicate how uncertain i feel about tis.

What if tis move is for the worse? What if i can't adapt to the pace over there? What if i absolutely hate my colleagues? Let it also be known tt the NEXT place is known for hiring only pple with gd honours..wat if i m stupider than i tink, n my academic results r just tt...gd to c on paper, but doesn't translate into true intelligence?

i noe i shldn't feel tis way, since i hv already made up my mind n there shld b no turning back. but then again, tink humans r constructed in such a way tt we will always wonder if the other alternative is better?

feeling a wee bit downcast now..not cos i made the wrong decision (since no one wld act noe until i join the NEXT place). just tt i hv never felt my confidence wavering so much b4..it's like i hv lotsa more to lose tis time round than all other times. it's not a mere interview tis time, 'if i got the job, fine, if not, it's also fine'. it has translated into much more than tt, cos i m banking my whole career n next half of my life on tis decision n it better work out. ok, i noe i m not bonded n all, n i m 'free as a bird' (to quote someone) to leave the NEXT place, but it wun b so nice to always leave rite? i mean, tis current job, i held it for like close to 1 yr..more like 10-11 mths after serving the notice period. not very nice to hv a record of always leaving after such a short while...

oh well, i hv no idea if tis is for the better or worse. can just pray n hope for the best...

in the meantime, pls rem tt i m on leave from wed till end of May. Pls ask me out!! =)